Today I'm Mad...

I'm really trying to keep myself busy and to not dwell on the crap that is going on. But let's face it. For anyone who knows me, that is really hard to do. I Joke about being a memeber of the "surgery of the year club", but I'm serious. In March of 2009 I had a hole in my heart closed. In March of 2010 I had a immbolization of a AVM that is in my right lung. Now I will have a minor surgery to remove a lymph node that is cancerous. Geez, I wonder what 2012 will bring. I never in a million years thought I would have Cancer. I guess nobody really does. I know I'm going to live through it. I have the Faith that I will. In the mean time it is going to drive me crazy. I'm scared, mad, and a total emotional wreck. I try to stay positive and I've done fairly well. I will keep trying. I'm trying to live one day at a time and not think about what will happen because I really don't know. It's still a waiting game. I know I'm rambling, but it's my blog so I can do that so ha ha. So I'm going to go and find some chocolate. =)